I just got invited to a friend's birthday party. Birthday is supposed to be a cheery, joyous occasion, but I came back feeling really bad. I haven't seen this friend of mine for a long long time, and we used to work together. I was really tired, but decided to go to her birthday at night anyway. Went there, sat down, recognized around half of the people in the table (who used to work in the same company). But I got the feeling that aside from my friend and three other people, noone is really interested in knowing or chatting with me.
I found out as well at the time that another friend who came to this party as well has gotten married as recent as 2 weeks ago. I didn't get the invite, nor anyone has told me about it. I instantly felt that I don't belong to this circle of people and it was a mistake coming here. In my boredom, I did a little chit chat with the guy sitting next to me. He worked at the same place i did, but never worked together in the same project. I do saw him several times around the office while passing through the kitchen for example. It's not a huge office anyway. In the middle of the conversation however, he paused, apologized and asked how I met the birthday girl. I gathered he had no clue that I worked at the same company as him and the birthday girl.
As the night progresses, things seem to get worse. For whatever reason, I found myself sitting in the middle of three girls that I didn't know previously. They were hotly chatting about some fucking trips around europe and africa, totally ignoring me who sat in the middle. I felt really awkward and seriously, none of them actually glanced at me once while they were chatting.
I went to the party in a happy but tired mood, and left with sad and really lonely feeling. I felt depressed thinking that if i suddenly dissapear, would anyone notice?
